Day 24- Time flying

So its a depressing day, but it shouldn't be. Its absolutely gorgeous outside and I have no excitement, at least not enough to propel me back outside again today. I just woke up pissed off. I don't get it. I need to workout earlier I think. I get so depressed when I fuck up a goal. I went to bed to late, I got up to late, missed a class again (!), and it makes me so miserable when that happens. When I work out, I'm happier, hence working out earlier, visa vi getting up earlier. Ok, on paper, or synthesized/internet formatted to look like, paper it sounds simple and easy. Outside of my perfect internet box, I am not living up to the standards that said typist has set.
On another note, the Avalon show is this week and we are getting down to the nitty gritty. Can she do it? Can I get my three stooges and mwah to sell all the tickets we need to in time? Will we play the show? Yes. We will play the show.
Also, I think maybe the depression is from the lack of incoming cash I'm used to. I am down on myself. I am learning that its not so much about the economy as it is about self esteem/confidence. I don't want to go back to serving, and then I decide I need to go back, and then....blah blah blah...its a bunch of self-defeating from there on....
Oh and when did Spring get here? I'm so unprepared for your arrival.