25 - ok wow...keep your head up

I did not get unemployment. I did not get hired for the restaurant I recently interviewed for; I was so sure I would. I haven't had a single gig from the Children's Entertainment company I work for. The big show is Sunday and I'm out two promoters for the promo show tomorrow. What will Regina do? I have called 6+ people so far to see if they can, very last minute, come help. I guess worse case scenario we will play our music over a cd player while on breaks and sell tickets in between sets. You know for all the people I know you would think someone wouldn't be busy tomorrow. I should have planned this better, I know. I just think hey I'm not the only member of this band, maybe just maybe, they'll already have thought of this stuff and planned it without me. Errrr wrong. (So very frustrating). Aw stress, how we can't get rid of each other; your addicted to me and I can't get out of feeling you.
What a challenging month mentally, emotionally, and physically. I am about at rock bottom, but that's good because you can only go up from the bottom. Right? Right. I am keeping hope alive and believing in prevailing.
On another note, I keep forgetting to weigh myself in the morning, but I feel thinner. :) Working out will do that to you. It also has taken some of the edge off of all this ridiculous stuff.