Day 46/47 - job interviews

I have made several plans to go and apply for work in WC. Somehow something keeps me up the night before and I don't get up until its too late. For instance its Friday and in restaurant world you can not apply on a weekend. The hiring staff doesn't come in until a few hours before their shift and they are busy. Now I have to wait, again, on Monday. So this time I would have to make it a priority. Up until now I've kind of been floating. I could go check out the local breakfast place down the street. Honestly I know why I'm not trying that hard. I don't want to go back to serving unless I'm going to learn a new skill or become better at an old one. I want to bartend or manage, after four years of serving I want something different. I have almost been hired at three jobs. It's strange to me to not be hired after a single interview since that's what I'm used to. I will admit that I haven't valued my jobs so much. In fact at times I've hated working for someone so much it was definitely obvious I was unhappy. I'm not sure how I got away with it for so long.
I think when I find something now, I will know enough not to put my whole heart into it. I wear my emotions on my sleeve alot and I think that can be a perk or handicap.
I have been neglecting my challenge for the past two weeks. Grandma has been remodeling the bathrooms so me and Shay have been living either partially upstairs or downstairs, going back and forth between rooms. I haven't been in my room to have my chart stare me in the face every day when I wake up. It helps alot to have something to remind you of your goals right in front of you when you wake up.